left wanting

This is a little crazy but I'm writing you back anyway.

I started thinking about what I wanted, which was funny because I was already sorta thinking about it from something else I was working on, and honestly I came up with a bit of a list.

I wanted my friends back, I wanted to go back in time, I want someone in my life like I could have had with Kaysen, I want to be as close with someone else as I was with Porter.

But all of that's going backwards. I can't keep going backwards, so I went back and looked it again and I realized I don't really know how to go forward. I want direction. Something that kicks me onto the right track to everything. To getting better, to being happy, to finding what it is that I'm meant to do.

Hope that's specific enough for you.

-Tad