I've been laying low, staying in my motel room, and, you know what? It's really boring. Really fucking boring. You want to know what I've been doing?

I made a mental list of all of the ways I could kill that bastard who's fault it is that I have to lay low, drank, spent hours staring at the ceiling as I tried to sleep, considered taking up smoking - as in the real habit instead of the occasional indulgence - thought about how Harlow probably wants me dead, thought about that whole balance crap that goody-two-shoes was pitching the other night, thought about Owen, thought about ascending, thought about Owen some more, drank some more, and then I did a lot of sleeping.

April 15,

I dreamed of him again last night. It was so vivid, and, yet, I couldn't control him. I never can. I have as much control over myself as in real life, but, him...it's like he's there. Is it possible that he's...no. I can't go down that road. I won't go down that road. I'll only drive myself insane. Sometimes I think I'm already insane. So what's the harm?

If, somehow, he managed to survive-he couldn't have survived, I watched him die-and discovered, or suddenly decided to use dreamwalking abilities on me, he would say something, wouldn't he?

Wouldn't he?

Gone through the doors. Check Germany or Manhattan. Need a break. Take care of my house for me. Here's the key.

-Harlow

posted by user kayotic

Who else is bored with all this fog and being stuck inside? I'll tell ya one person who is. That's me, friends and neighbors. Le Kayos is bored. So, clearly this calls for a game. Or, okay, kinda a game. Maybe.

I'm gonna start with a list.

1. What are you listening to right now?
2. If you could be anywhere in the world, where would you be?
3. Peanut butter: creamy or chunky?
4. Would you wear undies with holes in them?
5. Should zombies attack, what's your first move?
6. If you had a pet penguin, what would you name it?
7. You're making out. What music's playing? (bonus: do you try to keep up with the rhythm?)
8. If you went back in time to give your past-self some sage advice, what would your past-self do when faced with a crazy future clone person?
9. If you had to pick one celebrity to protect you from the oncoming onslaught of zombie pirate ninjas, who would you pick?
10. On a scale of 1(a wee bit) to 10(why are you not in a straight jacket?) where do you rate my level of Crazy?

Dear

That’s why I wanted to write this, because I have. Of course I have. And I’m purposefully writing this before I know what you’re going to decide. And I’m purposefully not going to give it to you until after that decision is made. Because I don’t want to pressure you either way. Because I don’t think what I have to say makes a difference, or should make a difference.

I'm a little rusty with this whole writing shit down and cataloging my thoughts shtick. So I’ll start with the most important bit.

posted by user kayotic

Hey all, sorry for the delay in vacation type things. To make up for the fact that plans are changing slightly, I offer to take anyone anywhere, and give you a good chunk of money to pay for whatever you need. I just have had a few things come up, and can't do things right now. Hopefully things'll get cleared up, and we can do the vacation as planned, I'd still like to do it, but yeah. Stuffs.
much love and such, hope everyone's okay!
-kayos

Dear Powers that Be

There's little that I want for myself, especially now it seems, but I do know something I want for someone else. Multiple someone elses if I let myself get carried away, but I'll stick to the best one.

I want Caleb, my little brother, to be safe. Not kind of safe, but really safe. He's got an extra something there, but I don't want him to have the shortest lifespan of the three of us, even if that is the logical situation. I don't want him to stop what he's doing, or change how he is, but the last thing I want is to lose him before it's time. So something, anything, to keep him safe would be fantastic.

- Dorian

This is a little crazy but I'm writing you back anyway.

I started thinking about what I wanted, which was funny because I was already sorta thinking about it from something else I was working on, and honestly I came up with a bit of a list.

I wanted my friends back, I wanted to go back in time, I want someone in my life like I could have had with Kaysen, I want to be as close with someone else as I was with Porter.

But all of that's going backwards. I can't keep going backwards, so I went back and looked it again and I realized I don't really know how to go forward. I want direction. Something that kicks me onto the right track to everything. To getting better, to being happy, to finding what it is that I'm meant to do.

Hope that's specific enough for you.

-Tad

Powers of whatever,

I want to be normal. Or less weird.

I don't want other people's memories and lives in my head. It was really fucking weird and quiet in my head the last time they stopped but I think I can get used to that. It wasn't like it was bad just weird and different. I want to be normal. Or here, if you can't make it go away? At least let me do something about it. Like control it or put up walls like Reggie can with her emotions stuff. Anything to make it less of an every day thing. I'm tired of it getting in the way of things.

I'm lucky and I know this. I have people that care for me, a home to call my own, I'm making friends, and I'm learning from Nic. I know all this and yet I still worry. I worry most of all about Bradley, Colin, and Scott. I need them to be better, Powers. I need to know that they're all coping well, but most of all, I need to know they are safe. So while my wish is for them to be happy, I suppose it would be more practical to ask for us all to be safe, the whole household. This house, this family, Dean, Thia, Oz, Nic, everyone that has helped us..they are all we have and we need them protected from harm.

Thank you very much,

Misha Robinson

This has got to be the weirdest thing yet. I can't believe this is even an option. Maybe it isn't. Maybe this is some crazy prank but right now, I can't take that chance. There's something I need gone from me and if this is the only way to do it, then I suppose I need to risk looking like an idiot writing to some vague 'Powers' and just do it. My wish is to be rid of the memory of seeing those men die. Back in that town, in that building, with Prue...it was the first time I'd ever seen something like that and it haunts me. So please, if you could make this happen, take that memory away from me. I don't want to forget about Prue, she was the only reason I made it out of there, but to forget about them would be a blessing.

Sincerely,
Annabell Davis

I have everything I want, except one thing. I want a permanent residence in the Marquette area. It would be nice to have a home again in a place that interests me. Somewhere dark with no windows is essential. I hate the sunlight.

Let's set a date for tea sometime. It would be lovely to catch up with you.

Yours truly,
Agnes Tenanbaum